I changed over night, in a blink of an eye. I had finally had enough.

So let me introduce myself;

Hi, my names laci, and I'm the bitch you wished was still hiding in the dark.

I don't care about what you think. I don't care how you feel. I don't want to hear your excuses. I don't care if I hurt your feelings. I'm not going to dress down, I'm not going to make myself invisible because you feel like nothing to compared to me. I tried being nice, I tried reasoning. Yeah, I just don't give a fuck now.

Good job. This is me, the real me. I warned everyone. Don't be mad when I'm not being a sweetheart anymore.

Be worried. Be scared. Hide your children.

XoXo

Laci.

Today I took my finals for my associates degree that I've been working on for three years. I passed all my finals and now I walk across the stage on the 13th! I'm so excited!

Hate on me!

Medical office management degree...your mine you bitch.

Laci.

My life's been so hectic I even forgot to blog about a few things. Damn, that's pretty bad.

Well let's start with today, for one. Today I got home at around sixish and then got up at seven or eight I can't exactly remember. Then I went to walmart and got stuff for a dinner with my roommate and friends who ended up having to go into work early. That blows. Then I went to the mall and got some "back stage attire" that works for my boss. Which is stupid, by the way. Then I cleaned and some other stuff.

Yesterday my roommate and I went on a shoppig spree. I got a bunch of stuff I needed for work like make up and stuff. We had a good time out.

I've slept six hours in like four days and I'm feeling it. My body aches and to brain is starting to get slow. I have things to do though, all the time. Between the game, work, school and my apartment it's never ending.

In other news...I graduate from college in ten days. With my associates degree! Oh my god how exciting!!

Dom and I are doing well. He's so amazing. Thank god I have his brain for biology otherwise I'd be in trouble. How that man amazes me.

Now I need a serious cuddle session with Disney movies and junk food in a dark room with my amazing boyfriend to make my month perfect.

I have tomorrow off. So I plan I get some studying in and I have to game to run and parents to pay. Damn child support.

Otherwise life is fine, all is well. I am just sleep deprived and achy from working in heals every damn night. But I'm happy at least. I have a roof over my head, food in my tummy, great friends, and an amazing boyfriend. Life's pretty good.

Till later loves.

Laci

I've been working like a mad woman, falling behind in school and slumber. I seriously get maybe four or five hours of sleep a day, maybe that's a good day. My ankles are tore up beyond belief. There seems to be no end to what I what I put my body through on a daily basis.

Dom and I are good again. Things have been back to normal, and my head and heart feel normal.

I can't type anymore I need to sleep.

Till later loves.

Laci.

So today i dyed my hair, again. I just did different red because it was so messed up. Adam helped me and that was an awesome little adventure!

Dom and I talked all day and we figure things out which was nice. Dear god I love that kid.

Adam and I did a little shopping and sadly a tire blew. We will get it fixed.

My feet hurt and my heals are tore up. Ouchy!!

Anyways...

Buh bye.

I am baked beyond belief right now. I am laying in my bed with another bowl, pizza, and watching Pretty Little Liars. That shows my newest addiction.

I have worked for two nights straight, and I have had no sleep in 24 hours now. Blah.

My roommate though brought me gummy bears and Starbucks. That's amazingness that's perfectness.

I am tired. Ugh. Bed, just bed.

Lately I've spent a lot of time back in my wonderland. I say back because I haven't spent a lot of time there since high school, almost six years ago.

So let me explain my own personal wonderland...

Wonderland is this place i go to in my head when things are chaotic or not going right or when I just need to escape. It's my safe place. Normally I'm baked out of my mind, but not all the time.

When I'm there my world is peaceful, silent, on pause and it's amazing. I go brain dead just for a short while. Then I begin to hop through my thoughts and figure them out.

I love living in wonderland. It's good for me.

Wonderlust, what is Wonderlust, and actually it's spelt wanderlust but who cares? This is a text I received this morning...from someone whom I love.

Let me explain what it is although I don't know where the term came from therefore I don't know why the question is being asked... But...

Wonderlust, I'm going to define this as a life of mystery. Loving the unknown. If this pertains to my relationship...no fucking clue.

Yup.

Laci

First off let me say...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Today is my second thanksgiving without my parents and family. This year though I at least have friends, a few good ones. This year I also have things to be thankful for and I will address them all.

I am thankful for my mother and father for accepting me in tough times. I am thankful for my daughter who will forever be a loved. I am thankful for being a college student and expanding my horizons. I am thankf for Adam and Austin as they have shown me good people still exist and they will always be there in my rough times. I am thankful for Dom, my boyfriend who has given me more life tools than ever and shown me life in a brighter light.

Thanksgiving this year I spend with no family, just friends, and that's okay because as long as you know the true meaning then it doesn't matter.

So celebrate on loves, get your eat on!

:)

Laci.

Everything keeps changing in my life, nothing's stable. From Dom to my family to my own mind...nothing stays the same for more than 7 seconds.

Today Dom tells me that he is officially going to Utah. I have no words for what I feel. The last few days have been a mess between us and no matter how hard I beg or pled he doesn't help me clean it up any so that I can at least try to understand it. The kid has my heart, my trust, my loyalty, my faith, and my soul. I just want to know where we stand, if we're together, if he wants me to stay with him while he is gone or what is going on. I need answers or I'm going to spontaneously combust.

I am willing to do anything for him, anything for us. I choose you Dom, always. I've already been threw hell, so give it your best shot.

Otherwise I'm hibernating in my apartment consuming myself in school work till my family gets ahold of me so I can go get my stuff.

I start my second job tomorrow..yay stripper shoes and graby men. -.-

Moving along.

I have finals coming up and a few papers due and I have no motivation.

God help me. Please.

Until later my loves, until later.

Laci.

So today Sam got kicked out because she doesn't do anything and she has this stuck up attitude. The truth hurts, and everyone is happy. Oh well, shit comes and goes.

Other than that, Dom said he was coming over tonight, but I don't know. I hope he does, cuddling would be great right now!

Then some random dude came to my door talking about pot and giving us a pot brownie, which isn't all that bad by the way. I come across some strange shit.

Austin came over. I got my Austin fix. I can curl up to him and feel at peace. I don't know why, but I do.

Thing one has been jumping down my throat all damn day. Music, yelling, let's not argue. Mother fucker than lay off me and stop being so ignorant and I won't be such a bitch. I swear he's asking to be tosse down a flight of stairs.

Other than that I just ate a salad and have had noise in a biology book all night.

I did call my mommy and talk to my pumpkin pie! She said quack quack and oh toddles and hot dog why made me smile. My heart melts every time. :) I love that girl! Forever mine & forever dedicated!

I'm going to go and watch fast five now because I'm higher than a kite.

Love laci.