As I take breaks here and there at work and study half the time because I brought my books because I have finals coming up. My head feels like it's on an everlasting rollar coaster.

This is going to be one of random ass post because I just need to get my thoughts out in no order!

I miss my boyfriend like no other, but I wonder sometimes if he even cares. Does he care that we haven't seen each other? Does he understand I actually care about him and I miss him deeply? Why can't things be different? Ugh!!

Two. My roommate Adam. He aj ways thinks he's done something to piss me off. That's very rarely the case. He's an awesome friend, there are times I get frustrated or angry but come on now everyone needs there space. He's never royally pissed me off. I wish it would stop otherwise I'm going to expolde and then there will be a problem.

I have to move into Taylor Place in a few weeks and then starts my asu adventures. I'm nervous, and excited...but defiantly not thrilled. Schools already killing me, will this get any fucking easier?!

Will I ever spend my money on me or am I just going to keep drowning? Child support this bill, that bill, and that the other one. Like fuck!!!

I want a date night with my boyfriend. A stoner day with my roommate. A coma day for my brain and body. 2014 better be a better year.

I have three photoshoots coming up. A tattoo I need to get done. A wall I need to path and a floor I need to fix. Just fuck come on bro!!!!!

I have homework coming out my ass and test that haunt me. I do math equations in my sleep. You can find me studying math and business and bio at the club or bar. It's stupid. College is killer.

Plus there are certain people that don't like my job and base me off of it. I'm going to say this once, and once only. This is a job, something to put food on the table and pay my bills. I don't live the lifestyle like everyone else. I am way more intelligent than that. I mean it's whatever.

I'm just overwhelmed and I need a trip to Tempe town lake stat. With a nice bud light in hand and some great music. I need outta here to a peaceful spot. Chandler mall to study. Tempe town lake to people watch. Asu to study. South mountain to work out. Anywhere with grass, water, or trees...and beer don't forget beer.

Oh well. Back to the club now. Because it's so much fun.

& the club was hopin hopin!

Lately I've spent a lot of time back in my wonderland. I say back because I haven't spent a lot of time there since high school, almost six years ago.

So let me explain my own personal wonderland...

Wonderland is this place i go to in my head when things are chaotic or not going right or when I just need to escape. It's my safe place. Normally I'm baked out of my mind, but not all the time.

When I'm there my world is peaceful, silent, on pause and it's amazing. I go brain dead just for a short while. Then I begin to hop through my thoughts and figure them out.

I love living in wonderland. It's good for me.

Wonderlust, what is Wonderlust, and actually it's spelt wanderlust but who cares? This is a text I received this morning...from someone whom I love.

Let me explain what it is although I don't know where the term came from therefore I don't know why the question is being asked... But...

Wonderlust, I'm going to define this as a life of mystery. Loving the unknown. If this pertains to my relationship...no fucking clue.

Yup.

Laci

So today Sam got kicked out because she doesn't do anything and she has this stuck up attitude. The truth hurts, and everyone is happy. Oh well, shit comes and goes.

Other than that, Dom said he was coming over tonight, but I don't know. I hope he does, cuddling would be great right now!

Then some random dude came to my door talking about pot and giving us a pot brownie, which isn't all that bad by the way. I come across some strange shit.

Austin came over. I got my Austin fix. I can curl up to him and feel at peace. I don't know why, but I do.

Thing one has been jumping down my throat all damn day. Music, yelling, let's not argue. Mother fucker than lay off me and stop being so ignorant and I won't be such a bitch. I swear he's asking to be tosse down a flight of stairs.

Other than that I just ate a salad and have had noise in a biology book all night.

I did call my mommy and talk to my pumpkin pie! She said quack quack and oh toddles and hot dog why made me smile. My heart melts every time. :) I love that girl! Forever mine & forever dedicated!

I'm going to go and watch fast five now because I'm higher than a kite.

Love laci.